Don't I look so happy and cheery and perky? Well...I was. I woke up with a ton of hope on my Tuesday morning. Not only was the hope filling me up to the brim with good spirit, but I had a full day ahead of me. Why not have the positive attitude to reflect all that?!
Why so hopeful? A much-awaited doc appointment that I thought would be a cure-all for months of discomfort, frustration, and failed attempts to feel normal again. I'll just break it to you now: normalcy didn't return after yesterday morning. The solution is to delve into the problem further, escalate my stress a bit, and then maybe get somewhere and make a lil headway with figuring out what's wrong. In the end: money spent, time off from work reserved, and procedure scheduled for later this month. Inconvenient? Yes. Worth it? I sure as hell hope so.
Wow did I skip things... Stuff on my mind? Yep. One could say that. So let's continue with my day a little more chronologically (skipping all of the things that I choose to skip).
Look at the breakfast gwapes! Not gween gwapes though! Purple gwapes! (Haha, it's ok if you don't understand that tangent...
But yeah, I sent out my usual (though never typical or expected in content) text to Brian. Did I ever mention I'm a morning person/early bird? And that he's most definitely a night owl? Hehe, I like using that to my advantage at times--makes for fun/interesting conversations in the A.M.
His response (sorry for the blurry-ness!):
Ominous? Perhaps. Well-received by Girlfriend Ali? Of course!
More stuff happened. Yadda yadda yadda. At work and worked on things. You know.
Eventually I got the above items together in a lovely, organized pile to prep for my visit to Travis High School. That was an exciting highlight. I mentally prepared myself to talk about naked roommates, going to class, and not surviving solely on the caf's soft serve ice cream. I'd say I've learned enough of that stuff in undergrad to pass my knowledge on to the senior class at THS. (Good conversation did progress from the above topics and many more, thanks to my guide: The Naked Roommate book by Harlan Cohen. Worth checking out. Or buying even.)
Before I ACTUALLY left for my adventure back to high school, I was kept pretty busy checking up on students' FAFSA progress. Remember the FAFSA? Remember how FUN it is to fill out? Believe me, I remember--not only do I have to ensure that as many of my 79 students complete THEIR FAFSA, but I had to actually do a FAFSA this year--WHAT. (Regardless, all I was offered in financial aid as a grad student were loans... I'm not too keen on taking out any more of those loans though, so those are just gonna sit there unless Ali P gets really desperate...or gets a few more expensive doctor procedures done. Bleh.)
Now what? I don't need to go into specifics about much else, I suppose. I just want to say how glad I am that my horrible morning turned into a decent afternoon and a legitimately fun evening. My night was definitely enjoyable, being goofy and simply spending time with Brian. Earlier on in the day, I even got news that a certain Kzoo friend might be able to visit me in May! I heard awesome positive things about Brian's potential summer job prospects. I even had a giant slice of my delicious frozen meringue cake--with extra balsalmic strawberry sauce because I'm currently IN LOVE with that stuff. (And to think that initially I thought that I made it wrong?! Psh. What did I know?)
So. A day sucks. You may not be in the mindset of turnng it around. But just try to be neutral. Other factors may play their part and make things better than you could have imagined. Accept what is as fact and don't mull on it. Life goes on. Stuff will happen. It's ultimately your choice to decide how you'll react. Yes, I reacted negatively at first. But then I became neutral to it. No, it's not very fun to be around someone who's just 'going through the motions,' but it's a hell of a lot better than being around someone who is absolutely unbearably upset, mad at life, and in a bad mood.
It's your choice. I was fortuante and thanks to circumstance and some awesome people who care for me a lot, I had a day that progressively got better.
At the very least, in my own words:
Have a DAY.
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